I’ve been fighting so hard and there’s no one to blame
But you start to feel lame like it’s all the same
These days blending together feel totally insane
And the registers are clacking while the masses are laughing
Forgetting why they were dissatisfied
I got so distracted by my own inner turmoil
Unable to nourish and enrich this fertile soil
Struggling to keep the various metaphorical entrails inside
While maintaining a smile toward those who deride me
Set aside those who confide in me
See me buckling under this weight
Created by holding onto the rope they were dangling from
Over a vast distance away from the summit
Commit to it but don’t lose it
This fire driving and raging
It needs fuel to keep gasping above the water
I won’t let gravity hold me down too hard
I’m not afraid to step out of line
Or to walk right into discomfort
I just need to know where I’m going
My compass stopped working
Like the magnetics somehow were blocked
A signal we all use but don’t see
Just like this rescue mission and backing eluding me
I want to learn everything
Keep things sacred
I want to start something real and not be abandoned here
Anymore
This dark dusty room with no electricity is no sanctuary
I really did try to create a movement but
Nobody listened and then I stopped hearing myself to some degree
Isolated with this seeping feeling of nothingness
Not even a vast blankness
It seems true nothing is a grinding swirl of something
So disfigured and gears so stalled as to make nothing rational
It’s the illusion brought by seeing too much
It’s the trial you must go through to see the truth
A reminder to stop holding on to a doomed vehicle